Friday, October 15, 2010

The Mail Service

If postage could send my heart to you, I would ship it now, overnight, as fast as can be.

You are stranded in a raft on the ocean. My heart will help you.

My heart knows the way home.

Through rain or sleet or dark of night or ocean breezes, the Postal Service always delivers,

And I never wanted you to be alone.

I don’t know where you are, because you didn’t leave a map or a constellation chart or bread crumbs,

But post codes always find their way, and if they don’t…it’s the sad tragedy of life,

When even the mail service fails.

I’ll address it:

Dear One
Stranded Raft
Ocean 1 of 4
The World

And I’m sure that will be specific enough.
The universe will make it find its way, with the post man’s help, unless there are other stranded rafts with other flags of address, or other such aspects I have not made allowances for, but I trust that you will recognize my heart when you see it. It’s the one in the brown paper roll with the plastic end caps. It’s the one addressed to you.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Which Comes First, Speech or Thought?

I stared at a terrifyingly blank computer screen for too long, having both too many thoughts and too few simultaneously. I didn’t want to tell a story from my time in Europe or share my thoughts about the current world situation or point out the duplicity within society as a whole. I didn’t really want to write anything at all.
That sentiment above could have been true at many points in my life, but actually it refers to about ten minutes ago. I, frankly, just don’t have anything to say.
But then again, maybe I do. Maybe I want to say that we all talk far too much. If we shut up about needing to plaster our own unique perspective across every available blank wall, then that oh-so-precious perspective might matter more. We would focus on developing that outlook, making it better, making it worth a damn, instead of forcing it to be known and understood by others. Prodding someone into acknowledging that I have a perspective on life worth the recognition does far less for me when I’m no longer in the spotlight than using those same efforts to craft thoughts actually worth expressing.
John Andrew Holmes said, “Speech is conveniently located midway between thought and action, where it often substitutes for both.” Maybe if we as individuals worked on the bookends of that process, the thought and the action, then the speech element would be more effective at expressing our thoughts accurately and at promoting the action we desire. Speech without thought is meaningless, and thought well-developed is worth speaking.

Monday, October 11, 2010

The Libertarian Ethic

If I could change the world, I don’t think I would. Because one change wouldn’t really make a difference. Because change in the world is rarely ever permanent. Because there is intrinsic value in the way we live now.
Once change takes hold, consequences always happen. Without proof by which to know that change, any change, would be truly positive, despite the optimism of the goal itself, there is no reason to assume that the change would actually, well, change anything. It is just as valid to assume that change might even make the state of the world worse.
Although this may seem pessimistic, to not want anything to be different, I’m really advocating a libertarian approach to life. If I don’t mess with you, then you shouldn’t mess with me. Perhaps the change in the world we should be aiming for is less people trying to make changes. Then maybe the world could find the equilibrium by which to change itself, without our interference.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

C'est Moi: The Outcast of the Hundred Acre Wood

I wonder sometimes if it is easier to describe myself as I am right now or in terms of who I have been. Then I wonder if there is really ever a difference.
I loved Eeyore as a child. The gloomy, melancholy figure perpetually on the outskirts of the Hundred Acre Wood in-group, Eeyore made me happy because he made me sad. I had a dozen stuffed variations of him, old-gen, new-gen, Christmas, cowboy, etc., hoping subconsciously that if I could love his plush form, maybe he wouldn’t be so sad in ‘real’ life. Because his story was real to me. Such stories are always real.
I know I never really abandoned my perspective on the reality of Eeyore’s plight, because I still have all my stuffed donkeys. I saw then, and I continue to see, too much of the pensive part of myself in his brooding character to outgrow him, since I could never outgrow that aspect of me. Eeyore is made up of the same stuff(ing) I am. I was never ashamed to relate quite personally to a blue-grey donkey with a defective tail who ate thistles and thanked Pooh for noticing him. Sometimes we don’t change. The Eeyore in me doesn’t change. And so, Eeyore and I will always have each other.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Alignment with Truth

I have a tattoo on my wrist. I also have one on my foot. The one on my wrist is the Greek word for divine, unconditional love, the one on my foot a line from an old hymn, asking for the blessing of God. If my self became wholly aligned with Truth, it would be the culmination of these two ideas: the love of God first, and the seeking for and outpouring of God's blessing second.
Before I knew it consciously, before I tattooed it, I was marked with God's love, unending, without reservation, for me. And then I loved Him, and I made that love a permanent black symbol on my arm. Because He first loved me.
Then came my supplication, my asking for blessing from the altar of that Love, my begging to be blessed in a kind of ever-present song of praise. Come Thou fount of every blessing, tune my heart to sing.
When these two concepts clash, there Truth is. When I embrace them together, then am I aligned with Truth, and then does Truth take hold of me. I become wholly devoted.